Tomorrow, I will drive my parents to Arkansas. We will go to Wilmar/Monticello, the southeastern part of the state where my mother grew up. It has been years since I have been there. But I look forward to going. I have a lot of very good memories of going there as a child. In particular, I enjoyed being there on Christmas.
My grandparents lived in a white frame house on a two lane highway coming into Monticello. They had a garden, a barn, a shed--all sorts of places where a city boy could explore. I have wonderful memories of riding on the tractor with my grandpa. At other times, he would take us to the woods. He ran a lumber mill and seemed to know about every kind of tree. I remember cold Decembers, riding in his pickup truck. With the deaths of my grandparents, all of those memories seemed to come to an abrupt stop.
At the time, I did not realize that we were making important and significant memories. I did not realize that one day I would look back and wistfully long to experience these moments again. No--at the time I was just living.
Today, I suspect the same is happening. Today I will just be living. But--it could be that I will make some memories as well. It could be that some of this "ordinary living" will actually turn out to be very significant.
As I think about today, I don't want to be overly focused on the past or consumed by what will happen in my future life on this earth. I do want to be very present in ordinary life.
As I think about the last few weeks, they have been ordinary in many ways. That is, they are very similar to many other weeks:
- Time spent in conversations with people about their children, their aging parents, sicknesses, etc. I've talked in my office with a number of people. On the telephone with a concerned parent. A number of e-mails in which people expressed concerns and issues that were deeply personal
- Time spent being with Charlotte. Talking on the telephone with Christine, Phillip, and Jamie (my children and son-in-law). Being with special friends.
- Time spent mowing, weed-eating, dealing with loose insulation in the attic, and paying bills.
Ordinary stuff.
At the moment, I am sitting at my desk at home. I am looking at a small clock on my desk. The second hand sweeps around the face of the clock every 60 seconds. At some point, the clock in my life will come to a halt. Life on this earth will be over for me. I know--we all know this. Many of us just don't think about it very much.
How will I live in the meantime? How will I deal with the ordinary moments of life? Will I consciously live in the presence of God, even in the most mundane moments? Will I be open to however God wishes to redeem the ordinary moments of my life?
Just thinking about this today...

Awesome stuff Jim. I am so guilty of just plowing through and missing some of the most ordinary things. When I do notice them, even the ordinary things of life can be very exciting, beautiful and rewarding. I appreciate your value of the ordinary. Your intent to stay focused on what is relevant in all of your writings is very centering for me. Thank you.
Posted by: Keith Reid | September 13, 2006 at 08:15 AM
Good reminder, Jim. One reason I began blogging is to force myself to not go through a day without seeing something worth noting. (Was that grammatically correct?)
Posted by: Greg England | September 13, 2006 at 09:59 AM
Keith,
Thanks for the encouragment. So good to hear from you again. Thanks again for the affirmation.
Posted by: Jim Martin | September 13, 2006 at 09:29 PM
Greg--good observation about blogging. That had not occurred to me.
Posted by: Jim Martin | September 13, 2006 at 09:30 PM
Jim - I enjoyed your blog today. If you look at it from your grandparents shoes, they probably had no idea they were having such an impact on you. I wonder what that says about those around us? I often wonder what memories my children will consider most prescious.
Posted by: Bryon Barnhill | September 13, 2006 at 11:09 PM
Dad, This was a very insightful bolg. Time is such a valuable thing that I think we all take advantage of. We think we have an abundance of time to do all the things we want, when in reality each moment is a blessing and a reminder that we are alive. I know that I dont always spend my time wisely. I think that it is an issue of selfishness. I think God gives opportunities daily to serve him that we pass by in order to use our time in the way that we want to use it. Anyways, all I am really saying is that college has taught me that time is the most valuable thing in life. Without time, nothing can happen in mine/others lives. It has also taught me that living for myself is such a waste of time which reaps no rewards. When I use my time for things that I know are pleasing to God...I know that I am living for him and it gives me a sense of satisfaction in my life. Well enough of my ramblings....I love u. Sorry if my insights didnt make any sense.
Posted by: Jamie | September 13, 2006 at 11:56 PM
How easy we forget the memory makers in our lives. It made me do a reality check about the memories I am making with my family.
Thanks
Posted by: Jeff Ulrich | September 14, 2006 at 10:18 AM
Sometimes, I stop everything and just take a moment to look full in my children's eyes...
talk about mundane...it is barely a moment, hardly a memory... but it's amazingly powerful...
Posted by: L.L. Barkat | September 14, 2006 at 05:00 PM
Jamie,
What a wonderful comment! Your comment is better than the post! I appreciate your insightfulness regarding selfishness. I think many of us relate to what you are saying.
So good to hear from my wonderful daughter...
Posted by: Jim Martin | September 18, 2006 at 03:07 PM
Jeff--
So glad this was useful to you. These memories are so important just as you suggest.
Posted by: Jim Martin | September 18, 2006 at 03:08 PM
Byron,
You are so right. I'm sure they had no idea the impact they were having. I suspect we do not either. Thanks Byron...
Posted by: Jim Martin | September 18, 2006 at 03:11 PM
L.L.
You have a way of expressing yourself in a way that makes me stop and think. Thanks,
Posted by: Jim Martin | September 18, 2006 at 03:11 PM